Most days ... no ... I have no idea ...
I've been trying to post an update here for weeks ... but I just haven't been able to get into it ... we'll see how it goes today ...
It's hard to steady yourself when trying to accept that your mom has a very rare, incurable cancer. It's weird because for so long it's been this fevered pace of hurry up and find out what's wrong with mom ... doctor after doctor after hospital after hospital after test after test after test after test ... procedures that stand at the border of being inhumane ... and then all that's over and all that's left is to sit and wait for the inevitable ... No more rushing to a new "specialist" ... there are no cures, there is no research, insurance won't cover any of the "treatments" out there anyway because they're considered experimental w/o the research/clinical trials, etc ...
Mom's having increasing breathing problems, tho the last couple of days have been a little better, they've upped her prednisone and that seems to have helped some. She now has oxygen at home and a nebulizer. The breathing treatments seem to help keep the coughing productive and help keep her airways open a little better.
Her pain is being managed by morphine & percocet so she sleeps a lot.
We had Easter there at mom's and she did really well, she was tired by the time it was over but she managed to stay awake and pretty lucid the whole time. It was a very low-key Easter ... sammiches and chips ... no fuss ... no mess ... it was nice.
Daniel has forsaken those that love him without reservation (or personal boundaries) for a paycheck once again ...
Forget that I am bored once again ... what about these poor babies? Who will think of them?
I think it's safe to say that Boogie is eating his feelings about it!!
I don't know what their excuse is ...
The car accident finally settled and that's all over and done with now ... it was almost not worth the hassle of dealing with ... but who I am to scoff at lump sums of cash?
Pursuing the ssd has finally (almost) paid off. The judge found in my favor and now I am waiting on a lump of retro benes ... but true to ssd form, I am, in fact, still waiting ... That and the judicial system have got to be two of the biggest frauds in our country ...
But, very soon this whole ugly process will be over and later it will just be a memory that haunts me when I sleep ... hahaha
I'm having surgery sometime next month. I'm hoping that all goes very smoothly and recovery is very quick and quite painless ...cuz I hates the pain man ... I've been stockpiling vicodin "just in case" ...
Just about two months left of school. ALREADY!
Freshman year down ... gawd, where does the time go? She's been doin' pretty good lately. Working hard to pull up grades in math and science, staying out of trouble, still attached to Meagen at the hip ... they've just been on spring break and spent the whole week together. She finally got her ears pierced and just like I told her, I wasn't there! She made me be there for the bellybutton piercing, I tried the ears, once, but she freaked and we only got one pierced. This time her other mom, Christy, took her and dealt with it ... but she's older now and she's already ready to poke the next holes in her ears ...
She gets her permit back when school's out and gets to re-enroll in drivers school. It's her only chance, if she blows it again, she doesn't get her license until she's 18. I'm going to believe she's not going to risk that. I think losing the permit and me pulling her out of her school got her freakin' attention. All systems have returned to normal ...
Spring has sprung here. It's been a little cool and wet but everything is a'bloomin ... and the days are getting nicer. It's been a beautiful morning here, still a little cool, but mostly sunny, lots of birds singing. The temp won't get far into the 60's tho and that's still a little cooler than I like it ... show me 70-75 ...
The cats have started going back outside on a regular (hear, in & out every 1-30 minutes all day) schedule ... it got so cold Daddy actually used the litter box ... it's been years since he's done that ... Boogie still comes inside to poop sometimes ... I don't get that ... the world is his toilet after all ... the composter busted and the contents spilled .. they love that bid old pile of dirt and grass ...
Well, I have chores to do and nothing left to say ... til next time ...
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